So, last week, I managed two days of much-needed peace and quiet. It started out right... with spiritual direction, some time in prayer, confession, and a massage (oh, yes... I am more than just spiritual!). I was carrying some heavy weight on my heart as I started out that morning, careful to guard the dressings on my wounds, certain that removing even just one layer would cause debilitating pain. A few hours later, heavy-hearted and stomach-knotted, sitting in the quiet cool of the church, I heard a gentle, almost-chiding voice from deep in my brain:
"Don't you know that there's no pain so great I can't bear it?"
And I broke open, let the tears fall, let the grace rain down on me, and... I survived. The pain was manageable. In fact, it wasn't even the least debilitating, once I let my sweet Lord into it.
And the peace that followed, the productive "nothingness" of reading novels, sleeping late, a gentle early-morning run on the golf course, even the sneaking home to finish prepping the school room... well, there was a grace to all of that, too.
So, my friends, as I slowly ease back into the world of blogging, I'll be considering some of what I've learned this summer, on my blogging break. And the first lesson is this: there is no pain so great that I can't take it to the Lord.
Amen, and "Blessed be the Lord who daily, bears our burden. The God who is our salvation." Psalm 68:19
ReplyDeleteBecause of nightmares, which I have almost every night, I usually wake up depressed. I have learned to quote scripture and pray until I feel better. Sometimes I wonder why I still have to do it every day but then I think, "I am so glad my God hears and helps me."
I have learned that too--there is no pain so great... And in the pain I have learned to recognize the gift--the pain calls me back to God. I wish that I didn't need that to happen sometimes, but I do.
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